see beyond my innocence

If you wait for me
then I’ll come for you
Although I’ve traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart

Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise
If it’s one that you can keep
I vow to come for you
If you wait for me

And say you’ll hold
A place for me
in your heart.

by tracy chapman

frankly, i really dont believe in promises..

in my statistics, there is a 98% chances of promises being broken..

promises would just ruin any relationship there is, youd expect much more than one can give.. somehow youd end up pressuring each other, pushing ones limit. it could lead to mistrust and disrespect, even ruin your own personality.

i am a disbeliever of such.. i’ll laugh at your face if youd make a promise to me..

but this song captivated my heart. its not so bad to believe on someone again. youll just have to trust that someone eventhough it would hurt to see  them go..

sure, it would hurt a lot, but come to think of it, in the end it would be worth the wait..

been here, in a place where am not supposed to be

a place where thousands of people would want to be in..

can’t go back now, am here

but am missin something…

missin out life!!!

missin me?!

missin the things that i love

things that define me

things that kept me sane

things that makes me happy

things that can make me smile

things that kept me as me

things..

things that are now beyond my grasp

things that i can only dream of!

am here, but wishing to go back

back to where am supposed to be

back to my life

back to where am not

Missin Out Life!!

been up so early,

getting ready for my duty,

and suddenly realized that..

OH! ala man dy duty karon..

grrr been so stupid..

life’s getting into a routine..

i hate it!

terrible, terrible me..

looked around me,

everything seems so bright..

but there you are, shining like a star..

gazed at you for a while..

ahha!! you caught me!

blushes caught my face,

and vowed not to stare at you again.

but it seems like you are my favorite mistake,

often tempted to look at your way..

i never could have imagined,

blushes could make my day!

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people
You must be strong, can’t show them that you’re weak
Have you ever told someone
Something that’s far from the truth
Let them know that you’re okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I’m okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I’ll be honest with you
Still we don’t know what’s yet to come…

I used to Love him
As I look at what I’ve done The type of life that I’ve lived How many things I pray the father will forgive One situation involved a young man He was the ocean and I was the sand He stole my heart like a thief in the night Dulled my senses blurred my sight

I used to love him but now I don’t

I chose a road of passion and pain Sacrificed too much and waited in vain Gave up my power ceased being queen Addicted to love like the drug of a fiend

Torn and confused wasted and used Reached the crossroad which path would I choose Stuck and frustrated I waited, debated For something to happen that just wasn’t fated Thought what I wanted was something I needed When momma said no I just should have heeded Misled I bled till the poison was gone And out of the darkness arrived the sweet dawn

Father you saved me and showed me that life Was much more than being some foolish man’s girl Showed me that love was respect and devotion Greater than planets deeper than oceans My soul was weary but now it’s replenished Content because that part of my life is finished

I see him sometimes and the look in his eye Is one of a man who’s lost treasures untold But my heart is gold I took back my soul And totally let my creator control The life which was his to begin with